It has bee quite a while since I posted.
A lot has happened lately. I graduated from college, been looking for jobs with no luck, and got my motorcycle license.
I really don't have much to talk about. I am quite bored here in Menomonie and my thoughts have been keeping me pretty busy.
My dreams lately have been random and vivid. I had a dream about a certain someone this morning that is leaving me kind of melancholy. Why do the good memories as well as the bad have to rain on my parade. I should be really happy right now. I managed to take an emotionally charged and hellish year and pull enough A's out of it to take my GPA up to a 3.5 and graduate with honors. Plus I spent my weekend on a motorcycle actually driving it for myself instead of being a passenger! But, the memories still plague me whether I am awake or sleeping. I don't know why I can't shake this. I'm not happy so why can't I move on? I do plenty of stuff to make myself happy and I don't know what else to do to move on. I've been sucked dry and I continue to have my joy stolen from me from such a worthless, self-centered individual.
My failure of a job hunt isn't exactly helping right now either. I am so stressed about my finances I don't know what to do. I'm only working about 20 hrs a week this summer and I need to do more with my time and earn more money. I don't want September to roll around and leave me broke and needing to pay rent. Besides, it is soooo empty here I might just go crazy. I wish someone could tell me what I've been doing wrong to not get a basic customer service job with a degree in Psychology. I think things happen for a reason, I just wish I knew what the reason is behind not being able to a job. I have bills to pay too!!
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