Set Fire to the Rain

So... I'm suuuper bored and thinking that I haven't posted in a very long time.

I have had a lot of time on my hands to sit around and do nothing, so my brain hasn't been working a whole lot lately.  I do some thinking... but mostly I just watch TV.  I still want another job but I have run out of ideas and options to apply.  I applied as a Mold Technician at Phillips Plastics the other day so I am crossing my fingers with that job.  I have some experience with molding so hopefully they will hire me.  I'm kind of sick of this "over qualified" B.S.  I need to pay my bills just like everyone else.  I may have my degree but I am still a student and I need to find a part time job just like all those other students who don't have a degree.  It frustrates me because I see how poor of customer service I can get and think about how this person has a job when I really don't... (I do but not for long and not enough hours).  Ugh.. lame.

I have too much time on my hands.  I spend my days alone sitting on my butt either at work or at home.  There aren't very many people in Menomonie over the summer... at least not many that I really know.  And those who are here have more of a life than I do with a job and friends and stuff.  I need to start working out again.  I'm feeling tubby and lazy.  But instead of working out I sit on my butt more.

There are good things going on in my life too.  Thanks to recent history I don't talk about them often.  I find that it sucks that a stupid person has changed me so much.  I used to be more trusting and now that is ruined.  I second guess things with an edge of mistrust.  I absolutely can't stand the thoughts that go through my head.  It shouldn't be like this.  I used to be comfortable letting the guy I was involved with go to the bar without a second thought.  It kind of shakes my self-confidence, sadly.  Going back and thinking how the last guy could blatantly hit on girls right in front of me gives me a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.  Now I feel that same feeling when thinking of letting the guy I like out of my sight when drinking.  He hasn't done anything to deserve that mistrust and I tell myself how stupid the thoughts are but they keep streaming through my head.  I just want to trust again... and not get hurt.

That's all for today my friends.  Stay positive!