Weekend class.... sooooo bored.
To make it better I am in a dead zone with no cell phone reception.
I don't have much to talk about today.
I am proud of myself that I have been doing well with my diet and working out this week. I am excited because I have lost about 2-3 pounds this week already! I feel completely vain today because the only thing that I have completed other than being in class was working out and tanning. I even put facebook on hold *gasp* to work on my outward appearance. I guess sometimes it is good to pamper yourself. I always feel better after putting a little extra time into my appearance. Call me vain, I don't care, in fact I was singing "You're so Vain" in the mirror this morning when I was getting ready for class. I find it amusing that I will probably be more tan in February than I will be all summer! My tan would be perfect if I was truly going to Mexico next week.
Talking about working out. I have missed it! I'm so glad I am not as busy as I was last semester. I am finally lifting again and my muscles hurt and it feels good (not to sound masochistic or anything). I went once today and I'm ready to go again. The endorphins are giving me energy and putting me in an all together good mood. I wish I would have worked out more last semester when I was so stressed.
In fact I have been thinking about the loss of relationships that I went through last semester quite a bit lately. I'm over the people that caused the hurt but the situations still kind of get to me. I realized this week that there are many things that I have been able to set aside but there are aspects that I haven't placed coping mechanisms for, things that don't come up very often. I had a week of contemplating some of these things and it has been very healing.
One thing that has started this wave of thought occurred when I was talking to a friend about loss of relationships and I said "I'm over this guy" and she said "No you're not." In fact this could be a controversial definition. I don't think about him or miss him, I do call him inappropriate names from time to time. In my opinion 99% of the time he doesn't even cross my mind so I am over him. There are the occasions that I still call him "fuck face" so looking at that 1% of time, maybe I'm not over it. I think I am. Good enough for me!
So much for not having much to say. I am currently finding this cleansing because talking about divorce and loss of relationship in this class is kind of agitating. Loss is hard no matter if it is a long-term relationship or a friendship, or even a loss within the family. It takes time to get over it. Staying positive is key. Thankfully my healing process has almost come to a complete circle and I think I am ready to put the past behind me. I may have thought this before, but I have learned better and I am starting to ignore my past and step forward.
I want to thank you all for your support and the positive reactions to my blog. This is a nice therapy session for me to ramble on about things on my mind. Good day to you!
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