It's the Buzz

I have not had a blog in forever so I decided that today would be the day to start again.  I have been following some blogs and I am a little intrigued.

To be honest with you I'm sitting at work extremely bored right now.  I should be doing homework but I'm doing this instead.  I should have majored in procrastination.

I have had a lot of things on my mind lately.  A lot of change is happening in my life right now and I am trying to sort some things out.  I did not fall asleep until like 5 a.m. this morning so my two cups of coffee are keeping the gears turning today.

I am going to be graduating May 14th making me super excited and nervous all at the same time.  I applied to graduate school and I am anxiously awaiting a final decision.  I got a call the other day to schedule an interview so I at least made it to that point.  I interview on March 9th at 10:55 a.m.  I was supposed to go on a trip to Mexico that week but it fell through.  Here is a wonderful example that sometimes things do/don't happen for a reason.  After this interview process I will know by April 14th the final decision of the graduate school of whether or not I make it in.  A lot is riding on this acceptance (or denial) if I don't get accepted I am strongly considering joining the National Guard, I'm not sure if I am crazy for thinking this or not. 

Another thing that keeps me awake at night is the thought of relationships.  I won't bore you with the great amount of detail I can go into.  To put it simply I don't know what I want.  I'm pretty newly single after a 2 1/2 year relationship and I'm certainly out of the game and I have already gotten burned.  I am enjoying my freedom but I am also kind of lonely.  I have great friends and family around me and I will never take that for advantage.  I'm told I can get what I want when it comes to a significant other but due to recent introspection I am thinking that I need to redefine what I want. One final statement.  He's not going to wait forever.  More contemplation to come on that one.

I'll let you go for now.  

Listen to some Paramore (that's what I'm doing now)