What's Wrong With Me These Days

I'm still feeling rather unsure these days.
I don't know what's going on with my life.
I can't get a job, and I'm feeling unattractive.
This combo is not a very good thing.

I have been thinking about my past relationships.  I am wondering why I go from one to the next.  I'm never really looking but something falls in my lap and I take it. 

I never used to think I was the kind of person who always needed to be in a relationship but I am realizing that is how I've been.  I have been "involved" with someone almost constantly since I broke up with my ex.  I didn't even try for this to happen and I don't know how it happened.

I know I have healed from my ex but some baggage from the last year still exists.  I am still very hurt from the way I have been treated and so scared to get hurt again.  I find myself almost always second guessing my relationship issues when I am alone.  I don't know if there is a reason for it or if I am just being stupid.  Is it because who I am involved with now really isn't right for me or is it because my past is haunting me?

I also wonder if I just don't know when to give up.  I hate giving up and when I put effort into something I am not quick to just let it go.  This burned me with David and I wonder if I am doing it again. 

So this makes me ask myself... am I over thinking this because of my baggage and are all of my doubts because I'm scared?  I just don't know.  Am I right to be thinking this or am I sabotaging myself?  And... should a person my age really have such extreme baggage?  I just can't imagine going through any of it again.

That's it for now... I think I've been confusing enough for one post.