The days are passing quickly and graduation is getting closer. I'm in need of a major motivation boost to get a lot of homework done. I'm not sure I want to be a graduate yet! I have a feeling things won't really change anyway because I'm staying at Stout to continue my education. It is a lot to think about though. The majority of my friends are leaving me here for the summer and quite a few are never coming back. That's not a happy thought at all.
My motorcycle class is in 3 weeks and I need gear for that and I know I can't afford it. Money is such a huge issue. I miss the days when I could get loans for school and my paychecks reached 6 digits and not my measly one hundred and something odd dollars. Which brings me to the issue that I need another job for the summer because 20 hours a week is not going to quite cut it. Maybe I should have gone back to the factory this summer on 2nd shift so I could have Fri/Sat/Sun off again. Ugh
Next thing on my mind. Boys. Really I just keep going back for more. I'm a little scared I'm going to get hurt again. Why couldn't he have stepped up like this before? And how long is this going to last? Is he going to go back to the way he treated me before? Every hour that goes by I think he's going back to ignoring me again.
I really have a lot on my mind. This is just the best and simplest way I could put it. The thoughts are just rushing around and overwhelming me!
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