Busy Week

Wow!  I've been really busy this week!!
I have been meaning to post because I have a lot on my mind but I have not had the time to write a meaningful blog.

I had two paper's due this week and stayed up until 7 am on Wednesday to write one.  I actually did homework at work this week!  That's pretty crazy.  On Tuesday I had my grad school orientation and I got to meet my classmates and some of my professors.  I registered for for my first semester of grad school classes and I have a pretty sweet schedule.  I'm done by noon everyday and I have Wednesdays off!  More time to work and pay the rent I guess.  This morning I had a job interview at the University Housing Office.  I am hoping that I can get the position to add to my 20 hrs I will already be working.  I very much want to work 40 hours this summer to make some money.  I will, however, be looking into other employment just in case.  The lady that interviewed me said that she will be getting back to me in the middle of next week so keep your fingers crossed for me!  There is only one position available...

I'm still thinking a lot about my emotional issues.  I try my best to keep it all in check but when I feel used by people I just kind of get depressed.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I continually feel knocked down like I don't matter much.  I have done what I can.  I have given people space and I have been around a lot and nothing seems to matter.  I have waited for almost 2 weeks since talking to one person for them to step up and nothing has changed.  I feel so low it is crazy.  I would be having a much better week if it wasn't for all this shit.  I really did have an amazingly productive week and I just can't seem to climb out of this canyon of negativity.  I don't know why I just haven't given up yet...

On another note... I graduate in a month!  How crazy is that?!?!  I'm not 100% sure what I think of this.  Bitter-Sweet because I'm coming right back to school in the fall anyway, but when I do I will have a bachelor's degree under my belt.  I'll be done in 2 years and I'll have a master's degree.  Kind of makes me feel smart... for once.  Ugh yup the negativity!  Well I'm out.  I'll work on posting more often!