When do we stop missing people?
We go from one relationship to another missing ones we have previously shared a part of our hearts with. When does one simply stop having someone they miss? It is easy to understand at this point in my healing process why people have rebound relationships. However, when the rebound ends... aren't you still left missing someone? So when does it all stop?
The good news is that you've stopped missing one ex, the bad news is you have started missing another ex.
Am I the only one who seems to feel like I am always missing someone? A love or a friend that is no longer there due to the termination of a relationship. The sting of missing someone leaves a void in your heart where they used to live. Whether you blocked that part from your brain or not, there is still a hole.
I live my life with logic and thinking about what I am supposed to do. When my heart starts to lead me in one direction it leaves me distraught and confused. When emotions take over is the head or the heart weak? Or does that show the flexibility of being human?
Where is "the one?" Is it real that there is a certain someone for everyone? Or when two paths cross is it something that takes work? I have always rated myself if I have given the "E" for effort? Somehow I feel like I'm always falling short. What could I have done to make it better? Does the person even want me to try and make it better?
When the effort falls short... is it time to let go? Is there that special moment for two people? And does it die with the turmoil that comes when you try to meld two people into one relationship? When do you stop trying and call it quits? When do you know when the other person is finished giving forth effort, even after a wake up call?
Do you really still like me? When you say that you never stopped liking me.... is it just to make me feel better and lead me off the trail that you met someone else? When you say you let me go because of distance and if I come back or the circumstances change so much the better, is that your hint to me that I should come back? Shouldn't you be my knight in shining armor running after me to keep me from going? Why does media put this sort of thought in my head?
Is it a hint? Am I supposed to come back? Do we want to keep trying? Is it really unfair "so far away?" Is this really that far away? When my phone rings I hope it's you. In my day dreams you show up at my door and hold me in your arms like you're never going to let me go. Will this exist for me one day? Life leaves me questions I seldom know the answers to. Ending relationships leads my heart and my head into battle.
"I've hoped for change, and it gets better everyday
I've hoped for change, but still I feel the same.
There's something wrong, cause everybody knows
that we can do this on our own...
And I'll confess that I can be a little selfish
Yeah I'll admit I don't want you to help me through this
I don't want to start over again."
~Woah by Paramore
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